Vistor

I have a visitor in my home. It is a dear friend, whom fell back into the grip of addiction. She will be staying with us for a few days, going through detox and trying to figure out what to do next.

She is devoted to her God. The same God that I worship. She walks in gifts of prophesy and healing. Yet, has fallen into the dark and now is trying to crawl her way back.

When I look at her, I can easily see her pain, guilt and shame, but, there is more I see and more that needs to be taken care of.

We pray, often, together and yesterday she ask me to go with her to the basement so she could wail and wail she did. She had hold of my hands and while praying I had to take bone crushing pain as she squeezed my hands. She prayed hard. Screaming at Satan, weeping to her God and then when I started to pray a demon began to come out.

She spit and gagged a bit while this demon was removed by God. Freedom was at hand and God delivered her.

But, as time went on, I became more and more aware that my house was full of demons. Everywhere I looked I would see the truth. The truth showed up everywhere. Demons to the right of me and demons to the left. I have not called out for them to leave as of yet, because I want to know exactly what God wants from me on this issue.

So, I bind them and gag them, so that they are not bothering myself, family, nor my friend. It is obvious that these things came into my home with my friend and that they are following her, so I need to seek God on what He would have me do. I do not want to just run them off and they lay in wait for my friend to come back out of my house. The Lord would not do that, so I will wait upon the Lord, for His timing, His wisdom and His love.

Meantime, I sit and watch the craziness unfold in the spirit realm and hang onto the fact that for "Me and my house, we serve the Lord". Waiting and watching what God is doing and having the assurance that God will lead me to the right place, at the right time, to deliver my friend from this torment.


Update on health....Pain

Dear Reader

I know that my posts have become sporadic as of late and it my stay that way for a while I have been ill for quite a while. Monday we found out why.

Since last December, I have just come up with all kinds of complaints. Doctors could not find out what was going on. I get ill whenever I eat. Although I do not lose weight from this because I retain water so bad. Last week we thought I had been bitten by a spider, but turned out not to be so.

Then last Saturday, I had a flare up of Fibromyalgia. I had to go to bed and just wait it out. By, Monday, still sick my husband took me to the doctor. The doctor looked at the spider bite and told us both that I had a staph infection. Looks like I have had it a long time. It has gotten into my lymph nodes and is spreading from lymph node to lymph node, showing up on my skin as a boil.

This needs to be taken care of this week, because my husband is on strike and our insurance only lasts till Friday. So, the doctor is attacking the staph aggressively and I am on multiple medicine's.

To celebrate, still no lupus. I remain free of the disease that God healed me from and yet fall prey to other things.

I looked to the Lord for my assurance of healing and no damage from the staph. I look forward to my healing and to no longer feeling bad. God's timing is wonderful, because one more week and I would have not been able to seek medical help. Although, my husband would have forced me to go, I would not have wanted to because of the loss of insurance. But, God is taking care of me and I will, finally, be back on my feet.

So, my friends, my posts, still may be sporadic for a while. With illness and a husband under foot my schedule fulls under chaos and I just go with the flow. I pray for all my readers and ask for your prayers as i recover.

Freedom

I am suppose to speak to a group of women at my church in a few weeks. Not knowing exactly what to speak about, I have been in prayer. But, I saw an email that went out to the women leaders of this group that said I would be speaking on being peculiar and doing a inner healing on the entire group of listeners.

So, there you have it. Prayer answered.

I started thinking, how do these two things relate. I sat down and started writing and realized the connection is great.

Most of the Christian people are not peculiar. They appear to be like everyone else. It is very hard, in a crowd, to pick out the Christian from anyone else. Why?

So, here is the focus of my speech. We are not peculiar because we have unresolved issues that lie inside of us that hold us back. These issues have to do with perception. This perception includes how we see our selves and worry about how others will see us.

Fear of man and fear of self. We fear of making a fool of ourselves. Finding the issues inside of ourselves that creates this fear will have to be the next step.

What kind of issues are there that create such fear? To name a few:

I was told to not make a fool out of myself.

As a child, I was hurt, emotionally, every time I tried to express myself.

Told, "what will the neighbors think" when I look different.

Came to believe all the above.

All these words and deeds not only keep us from being peculiar, they also, keep us from pure worship. We stifle the desire to fall to our knees, bow before the Lord or dance with the joy of the Lord.

We are called peculiar seven time in the Bible.

Exodus 19:5
Now therefore, if ye will obey my voice indeed, and keep my covenant, then ye shall be a peculiar treasure unto me above all people: for all the earth is mine:

Deuteronomy 14:2
For thou art an holy people unto the LORD thy God, and the LORD hath chosen thee to be a peculiar people unto himself, above all the nations that are upon the earth.

Deuteronomy 26:18
And the LORD hath avouched thee this day to be his peculiar people, as he hath promised thee, and that thou shouldest keep all his commandments;

Psalm 135:4
For the LORD hath chosen Jacob unto himself, and Israel for his peculiar treasure.

Ecclesiastes 2:8
I gathered me also silver and gold, and the peculiar treasure of kings and of the provinces: I gat me men singers and women singers, and the delights of the sons of men, as musical instruments, and that of all sorts.

Titus 2:14
Who gave himself for us, that he might redeem us from all iniquity, and purify unto himself a peculiar people, zealous of good works.

1 Peter 2:9
But ye are a chosen generation, a royal priesthood, an holy nation, a peculiar people; that ye should shew forth the praises of him who hath called you out of darkness into his marvellous light

Even though God calls us peculiar we ignore that call. We concentrate on other things that God has called us and leave this one alone. We, has Christians, need to find a place of freedom inside of ourselves, that brings freedom to be a peculiar people.

Claim You Winnings

Life is full of winning and losing. It would seem that every aspect of our lives is about one or the other. I suppose I have always seen life as a game because, I have always said "I am not as survivor, I am a victor".

The word survivor has always, seemed to me, to have a negative connotation. It is good to survive....don't get me wrong. But, it is wrong to always see ones self as a survivor instead of changing that thinking, eventually too, I live in victory. If I am continually surviving, I have not conquered my ordeal.

Salvation is a gift from God. Not one to believe, once saved always saved, I see keeping my salvation as being a winner.

Someone whispered to me the other day, in their moment of torment, that they were going to lose their salvation. Life is never simple, but we must pick sides. To either be on the winning side or the losing side. Black or white, right or wrong, truth or the lie.

I have a brother, whom once was on the winning side. He praised God. Was born again and now walks around losing the game. He has chose to change sides. He sees my side as losing.

It is, at times, harder to be on the winning side. Victory never comes easy. One must keep the mentality of striving. You can see this thinking in any game. In baseball for example. The side that is winning has an attitude of security. But, the challenger keeps up the pressure and one false move on the part of the winning team and all can be lose. So, the pressure is always on.

Staying on the winning side of life, brings challenges. The losing side is always after the winning side. The winners must stay alert and cautious. Salvation is not to be toyed with. Satan and the world views are always waiting for a mis-step so they can have the victory. Like baseball, there is a winner and a loser. Like war, which is what we are in, there is a victor and a loser. What is your mentality? Are you a victor? Or do you survive?

Living in victory bring joy and a assurity of the outcome of the game. A victor knows that they will win where a survivor has no such assurance. As Christians we should know that victory is ours and that each battle we fight is ours. It is already won. But, if I am in survival mode, then I am lazy in my thinking, tired and stuck. Walk out of survival and claim victory over life and the games that tear you down. Life is to short to just survive. Find the attitude of victory and claim you winnings.

Fall from Grace

Sometimes it feels as if you can only watch as Satan grabs and destroys. He sneaks up on people and steals their joy, love and their very life. His tactics are subtle at times and we can be in the arms of his evil before it is recognized and then we have to start to fight our way back to the security of God.

Why do good people, people who love God and worship Him with their lives, succumb to his evil plans? Are we not alert enough? Are we not truly following the plans that God has for us? Where does it all go wrong?

The temptations of the world, I suppose, can come upon us and we lose our grip on God. But, that seems such an easy answer. You could say, that people who fall into sin were truly never saved. But, that would be a way of alleviating the chance of my own fall from grace. We have all heard the excuses and causes of believers falling from grace, but, right now, for me, it is all just that, an excuse. Where in lies the truth? Why do God's beloved children turn from His very presence and instead choose to do evil?

It seems to me, to be such a foreign thing, turning from God. To deliberately create a situation in my life where I fall into the arms of hell. But, I have learned this weekend, that thinking that one could never choose evil over God, after knowing Him in an intimate way, is an unsafe way of thinking. I have seen the righteous fall from grace and I find it all to much of a slippery slope.

How easy it can be to move closer to Satan and further from God? Pretty easy. It does not even take much thinking. Suddenly, their you are following the one who destroys life and leaving the one who gives life. Does not matter the years of knowing God, nor the depth nor intensity of that relationship disaster can come. As day turns to night, the light of God begins to fade. The call into a life of darkness begins to control our every thought and soon the voice of God fades into the darkness of that long cold night.

I struggle with the whys in life. I see the righteous fall into the darkness and I weep, I wail, I feel the pain of God and I scream, I intercede, I fall on my face. My tears dry up and I feel lost. Not understanding how a life so abundant in the Lord can suddenly be controlled by the dark. Are we really so vulnerable to the evil of this world? Can all our lives be, in the twinkling of an eye, swallowed up by the schemes of Satan?

But, why? Where is our strength? Why do we walk away from our refuge? What is it in us that would choose to leave glory and walk into doom? I break inside whenever I think of our vulnerability. Do not delude yourself and think "I could never walk into darkness". The dark is only one thought away.

"Your Name is Holy"

Last night in my community group, we sang the song "Your Holy Name".

You are the sovereign "I Am"
Your name is Holy

You are the pure spotless Lamb
Your name is Holy

You are the Almighty One
Your name is Holy

Your are the Christ, God's own son
Your name is Holy

In Your name there is mercy for sin
There is safety within, in Your Holy name

In your name there is strength to remain
To stand in spite of pain

in Your Holy name

I was so very moved by this song. It felt like an answer to my thoughts on yesterday's post. In the post I had told of lying to bring peace to a situation and how this lie had haunted me since. This song says 'There is mercy from sin'. This, of course, is something that I already knew, but hearing it last night brought relief and love to my heart.

God is good. All the time.

Peacemaker

Matthew 5:9

Blessed are the peacemakers, for they will be called sons of God.

I was called a peacemaker once, but does being a peacemaker include lying to accomplish the peace?

I was in a meeting, it was more of a confrontation over a woman's behavior in the church. I sat there with the woman, the Pastor and his wife.

I do not remember what I said, but it set off a bomb. I, in my stupidity, did not think it a big thing, but it turned out to be huge. I was repeating something that the Pastor's wife had said to me.

She denied that she had said this to me. I was taken off guard. She was lying and I was at a loss. The meeting got weird then. She went into a rage and the Pastor did not try to control the room. I watched her freak out and wondered at what I was suppose to do.

This went on for quite a while. She gave a defensive speech and we listened. Then she asked me if I still stood by what I said. I said "yes". And off she went again.

Still, I did not know how to calm the situation. I felt like I had to tell the truth, but this problem was not going to resolve itself and no one else in the room was trying to step in.

My thoughts went to, "you are going to have to swallow this one". But, how? If I lie, I am in sin. If I keep telling the truth, this woman is going to have a heart attack.

So, I made a decision and while asking forgiveness in my head, I said out loud, "I'm sorry. I must be mistaken. Will you forgive me."

Everything stopped with those lying words. She forgave me, knowing she had done the deed, and calmed down. The confrontation moved over to the other woman.

I felt terrible and a bit confused. I lost a lot of respect for the Pastor's wife, the Pastor, and felt I had disrespected God. I deliberately sinned.

I was told later that this was being a peacemaker. I am sure that most peacemaking experiences do not include a lie. But, I saw no other way out. So, I confess publicly that I have sinned and have come short of the glory of God. For this I am sorry and have asked forgiveness from God.

I have felt pain over this ever since. It comes up in my mind every now and then and again I repent. Perhaps it is Satan who brings it up in my mind, but my shame remains. I know that my Father has forgiven me. But, my sadness over my lack of ability to resolve this problem without a lie, continues to take a toll on me and bring me to my knees.

My Mothers Voice

I hesitate writing this one because of feed back. But, one can not say anything that I have not heard before. I have been called everything. I want to share because it brings up the scripture in the bible:

I Thessalonians 4:16

For the Lord himself will come down from heaven, with a loud command, with the voice of the archangel and with the trumpet call of God, and the dead in Christ will rise first.



The other night my brother, Only in His Service, whom lives with me, came down the stairs excited. He told me he heard a voice. That the voice had told him something personal. Then he asked me to guess whose voice it was. Of course, I had no idea. He was so excited. He then told me it was our mothers voice, who had died in April.

I got excited myself. Wanting so badly to be with my mother, I felt wonderful.

We went into the living room and told my husband. Now, my brother is not as supernatural as I am, but since living with me, is coming into his own. So, a conversation started.

First, my mother had a similar experience when I was about 17 years of age. Her and I were visiting her father in Kentucky. Her mother had past away a while back and her father was showing the first symptoms of Alzheimer's. He was constantly talking to his dead wife. One night, while we were visiting, my mother had gone to sleep with a terrible headache. In a dream she heard her mothers voice. The voice said that when she woke, she would see her dead mother and her head ache would leave. When she woke, there was her mother and her head ache left.

That event was shared in our conversation. We then went to, how can this be? I, of course, in all the supernatural things that have happened to me, did not really care, how this could happen, but became curious. How can this line up with the Word of God?

The verse quoted at the top of this page came up. Since my thoughts on the rapture are, "I hope there is one, but I do not see it in the Bible", I have always wondered at this verse. My brother, who believes totally in the rapture, had a new thought on this verse. He suggested that perhaps we linger here on this earth. That we wait here for the Lord. This began to make sense to me.

In my life, I have seen many dead people. I do not know why I have this gift, but it happens now and then. I see them in their earthly body. I recognized them and know what they want. I do not talked to them because the Bible tells me not to. But, there is a kind of communication, because I always, supernaturally, know what they want. Which is usually comfort for someone.

So, if we linger, why would we not see them or hear them. The spirit realm is alive and active. There is good and evil just like in the realm that we live in. I do not have all the answers, but I know that it is very possible that the dead linger, waiting for that wonderful day of the return of our Lord Jesus Christ.

I am happy. Just like when I see the dead and it brings comfort to someone, my brother hearing our mothers voice has comforted me. It brings me joy to know that she is near. My mother loved Jesus and waits for His presence as I wait for His return. I look forward to that day, when, we are all together in the presence of the Lord Almighty.

Prophesy "Walk in the Realm of the Supernatural"

From Diane Mourey

Walk in the Realm of the Supernatural prophecy by Diana Mourey at the altar of Ignited Church, 06/2008

Can you take hold of the supernatural, asks your God? Can you take hold and believe you walk in the realm of the supernatural? Can you take hold and believe indeed I will come forth on of those who call upon me?

Even as you have called upon me, I will come forth, and I will come forth on a white horse, saith God. I will come forth and it will be with a sword indeed in the realm of the supernatural and they will see, for their eyes will be opened. For I've heard your heart cry and I've seen your tears. I've heard your intercession.

I have felt compassion, saith God, for this generation, saith God. For this is the generation that will rise up and walk in the supernatural realm, and they shall see and they shall hear and they shall move with God and they shall do exploits, exploits, exploits, exploits, exploits, exploits, exploits, exploits, exploits, exploits, exploits, exploits shall cover the earth in this hour. For this is my generation; these are my youth; this is that of which I have spoken of in times past, and you shall see it happen.

So yes, be comforted; be comforted in this hour. Be comforted; be comforted; be comforted in this hour, for you shall see with your own eyes that which I am establishing and you shall see it come forth even as your heart has desired it.

I am lifting up a supernatural standard on their behalf. Yes, you have heard of and you have seen those who are dying and who have lost their lives needlessly, but know this: I am standing in the gap for my little ones. I am standing in the gap, saith God. It is time; it is time; it is time and the enemy shall be put on the run.