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Wednesday, February 4, 2009

Confession


I am sitting in my basement writing...my laptop took a dive. I have never liked being in the basement...not sure why. I suppose, I need to be on top of everything.

I realized last night what little faith I have in God's promise of provision and how materialistic I am.

We found out yesterday, that 2,400 folks will be laid off at my husbands plant. Even with 20 years, my husband, without the help of God, will be laid off.

We have made plans for this event, but the reality hit me last night and I cried.

It certainly will be the end of the world as I have know it.

God has blessed us in every way. We can not sustain this life style on unemployment and disability. We do not live above our means, but we have rental property, a farm and the house we now live in. We have to cut back and take losses.

So. I grieved last night. I do not want to give up the house I live in. It was a gift from God, but I suppose it was for a moment in time. He gave us the farm also and that is were we will be headed. I realized that the farm is a provision from God. It can sustain us with food and income, but it is run down and I, in my late years, do not want to take on the task.

Selfish?? Yes. Materialistic? Yes. Frightened? Yes.

In the last few posts, I have published predictions and prophesies about the United States. I posted them for you, my dear reader, to heed. So, I need to heed them as well. And I need to trust the God of the universe and believe.

This kind of thing certainly takes you back to the basics of our faith. The old song "Trust and Obey" comes to mind. "Cause there's no other way". My faith is small and my trust is small, my hope is small. But, I will hold onto the hem of the Lord's garment and cry out His name. "With out you Lord, I can do nothing".

4 comments:

FancyHorse said...

"The Lord gives and the Lord takes away. Blessed be the name of the Lord!"

God has even greater gifts in store for you than you can imagine. Hold onto your faith.

"Rejoice in the Lord, always. Again, I say, Rejoice!"

"In all things give thanks."

I will keep you and your family in my prayers.

Given55 said...

Thank you Fancy Horse,

God is all I have. I will gain my strength through Him. I have realized that I have to just wrap my mind around what is happening. That is not easy, but with God's grace I will prevail.

Bluebirdy said...

Sis I am SO sorry to hear about your husband being laid off. It just might be a good time to do more of what he's always enjoyed in life, and start a business doing that, or doing more with the "ghost hunters" thing he is in. this will cause a lot of "growing pains" for most people in the world, but I think a lot of spritual growth and cultural changes will come from this financial crisis. Forgive my lupus fog. I only remember the first name of his organization is Kansas and that you help others get rid of unwanted spirits. Thanks for visiting my blog, and for your much appreciated comments there!
Blessings,
Sheila/Bluebirdy

AProvisionOfGod.com said...

I've heard it said that God has a set time for our deliverance. As He is Sovreign; I tend to believe it's true. He knows when we'll be obedient enough to maintain the deliverance and not end up fighting a swarm of evil in our own strength.