Thursday, May 8, 2008

A Letter to My Readers

My Dear Readers,

The truth is I feel dried up. I have not got back into the swing of things and feel that I am lacking in my blogging.

I am trying to plug back into my church activities, housework, crocheting, blogging, but am having a great deal of trouble doing so. My concentration is gone and I have very little motivation.

A dear friend came by and told me that it is the Jewish tradition to mourn for a year and that it took that long with her mother. I, on the other hand, feel that it is time to get on with the task. That is what my pastor has told me and I agree. The problem is my mind and body are not quit ready. I need to give myself permission to take as long as it will to grieve.

Tonight I am going to go ahead and have my community group hear at my home. I was suppose to call everyone, that comes, and tell them it would occur. But, I have not called. Two are coming and that is only because they called or I saw them. I do not want to do anything.

So, I am trying to push myself back into the world. God, on the other hand, can not be pushed. I feel, a bit, detached even from Him. I seek Him in the mornings and wait for His nudging on what to write on my blog and I since nor hear not a word.

What I am trying to say to you, dear reader, is that if my posts seems vague, erratic, lost or just plain boring, it is because I have become those things for now. I am working my way back to myself, but for now, this is who I am.

I am a supernatural Christian processing the loss of her mother.



V said...

You are not vague erratic or boring. You are grieving, and I think your readers understand that.

Anonymous said...

Take as long as you need, we understand what you are going through, some of us have already walked that road. You will have many ups and downs, but as you know, God will always be with you through it all.

Whatever you write, we will read. Who knows, you might even tell us some secrets :) (joking).

About the Wrights...KY is just a "hop and jump" from TN!

Until next time,
Aunt D.

Oh my, I just had a funny thought....what if I am your aunt???

DadCat said...

What you are going through is perfectly normal.
When my Mother died I thought that I would be able to go back to work the day after the funeral but I found that I was unable to do anything when I got there. I just stood there by my machine and was unable to think what to do.
I told my boss that I needed more time and he said "Take as much time as you need." That is my advice to you as well. Take as much time as you need.
In HIS Love,

Kat said...

I get so blessed through your honesty. "Be-ing" where you are being authentic is so refreshing to your readers even if it feels messy or uncomfortable. You're awesome and we love you and feel privileged to hear snipets from your journey. Thanks for sharing! He's so alive in you and you can just rest in that -- whatever form it may take!

Given55 said...

Thank you all for your understanding. You are all great.

Aunt D,

We should research the Wright line. We could be in for a surprise.

Bless you all. You touch my heart.