for the LORD detests a perverse man but takes the upright into his confidence
Jeremiah 33:3 (New International Version)
'Call to me and I will answer you and tell you great and unsearchable things you do not know.'
These two verses changed my life with God. They stay with me & pull me ever so closer to God.
When I found Proverbs 3:32, I got so excited. "takes the upright into His confidence". What could be better. The author of the universe taking you into His confidence. I prayed to God that He would find me worthy of His confidence. But, the ever nagging doubt that I could ever be "upright" enough for Him to "take me into His confidence" was constantly around. I am the chief of all sinners.But, I, also, remembered that we only need to ask.
John 16:23 -24
In that day you will no longer ask me anything. I tell you the truth, my Father will give you whatever you ask in my name. 24Until now you have not asked for anything in my name. Ask and you will receive, and your joy will be complete.
What to do. Am I upright enough that all I have to do is ask? I, finally, just shared with God that these two things, His confidence & the knowledge of the unknown are what I desired.
I fall so short of being upright. My soul & my spirit are in constant battle. Oh, I have greater peace than I use to, but, there will always be a sense of struggle. Did He give me my hearts desire. Yes. But, it turns out I had this desire all the time. We all do. God has shown me that all we need to do is look within ourselves, search the depths of our psyche & discover Him. He inhabits our very being, He dwells within our minds waiting for us to plug in.
There are parts of our psyche that we do not acknowledge. A part that leads to the supernatural. God has told me that he has made us so that we can be in intimate contact with Him & walk in the supernatural. We just don't go there. In this day & age these things have become lost. Belief in God has become a sign of weakness, a weak man's way of escaping the reality of life. So, we have grown doubtful & full of disbelief. We this influx of secular ideas, we ignore or let lapse our ability to reach into the realm of God.
God is calling His people. We only need to ask & believe.
Is there a consequence to walking into the unknown. You bet. But, the rewards are far greater. Persecution & rejection are the biggest obstacles. There are even times when what God has shown you is in part & seems so implausible you can't share. Some will listen & take what you are saying & ponder it, which is what God wants. Others will think you crazy. But, if you achieve your desire, you will find you only need God. You only need know that He is communing with you & taking you into His confidence.
There are time when I sit & stare at God's labor & ponder His thoughts. So lost in His presence that I realize how "not of this world" I really am. For each of us we need to make a decision. Am I of this world or am I as the word says "not of this world. Choose! Either walk in this world or walk in His.