Saturday, March 15, 2008

So Very Sad

nancyI was sitting on my couch crocheting when I heard an unusual sound. I looked up, just in time, to see my mother complete her fall onto my hardwood floor. The sound of her landing was loud, hard and frightening. I knew, at that very moment, that her hip was broken.

Friday night, we sent for an ambulance. They took my mother away to the hospital. When I arrived at the hospital, it was so overcrowded, that she had a bed in the hall. Her pain was severe and I could do little to help her.

She feels grounded, when she is looking at me. For the last few months, I would look up and there she would be, just staring at me. Her mind lost in the blur of Alzheimer's, no telling what she would be thinking. So, at the hospital, I made sure she could see me at all times.
Finally, the verdict. A broken hip. She was admitted and we went on home. We needed to be there early the next morning to see the surgeon. I worried about how she would be, not being able to see my face. But, with the pain medicine, she slept.

The words from the doctors this morning, were the kind of words that tear at your soul. "If she makes it through surgery" and "the mortality rate is very high the first year after surgery". My sadness is overwhelming. I want her to live, but she has so little life left in her, that, for her, passing would be a blessing.

So, we wait for surgery. It will not be tomorrow, because she needs to be taken off of her blood thinners. Maybe, Monday. Then six weeks of rehabilitation and then, more than likely, a nursing home.
My mother, does however, have a tendency to rebound. This could be a possibility. But, I also, need to face the fact, that I probably will not be able to care for her any longer. So, we will see.

So, very sad. There is a time for everything under Heaven. There are times when we walk in and out of seasons so cautiously. Barely noticing the passing of time. Then there are seasons, like this one, when you wish time would just stop and you would not see the end of this long winter.


Anonymous said...

I'm so sorry to hear about your mother, I know your heartache must be great. Know that your friends will be praying for you both.
May God Bless your ever hour.

Aunt D.

Given55 said...

Thank you, so very much, That means a lot to me. The Doctors just called and said that they are operating tomorrow. Thank you for your prayers.

Sidharth said...

With you in prayer and love, Cindy.

She is in His strong hands.


lance said...

I pray she gets better, my sister. You are in my thoughts and my silent prayers of the heart.

Given55 said...

I have made such great friend on line. Your support and love is felt in Wichita, Kansas. I did not want to cry today, but, your wonderful words brought tears to my eyes. Thank you for your words, encouragement and prayers.


I pray that He set angels to take watch over her, until He brings her safely through this storm.

George said...

I could not pass by without a word of comfort. God is able to do exceedingly above what we think He can do in any given situation.

I trust and pray Proverbs 3:5-6 will continually be your lighthouse to guide your ship though your trying time. I pray for your mother's speedy recovery and for you and your mother's ability to endure through the rehibilitation period and beyond.

channelofhealing said...

Given55, May God be with and and Heal your Mother in Jesus Mighty Name Amen.

Jan said...

Given, I am very sorry to hear this sad news.

I know what you are going through, but I know that you are holding to the hand of the One who will see you through this, and that you are praying for His perfect in this.

May our Lord send his angels to protect you, and yours, from evil, harm, and danger.

Given55 said...

You have all been so kind. My mother has survived the surgery and is now trying to get through the next 24 hours. This has been horrible. Our treatment here has be deplorable. I will post on it as soon as I have time.
God bless

Anonymous said...

I am very sorry to *hear* this. FWIW, I see her bouncing back...seriously...bouncing on the *other* hip...

Fun in your sadness...don't know what to think of *that*...

No disrespect meant. I assure's just...what I see...and, she's smiling too...

Love to you both.